Cold Nostalgia

Saturday, October 16, 2010 @ 3:18 AM

Do you need a reason to cry?

Firstly sincere apologies to all my dearest for not turning up..

Kinda not well...

Hope you guys have a blast yeah?

love you guys to max..

Monday will be the start of school..

back to routine..

though it seem good as i wont be BORED

but honestly its like bad!

seeing those people i have been trying hard to avoid..

Its not that i hate them..

but seeing them i feel how much a failure ive been..

been trying hard not to post all this here..

but how much can i help it?

it has been in my head for this whole week..

who else do i have to vent all this out right?

so bloggie, dont mind me ok?

Haven been talking much these days..

dont blame him as he has other work/job/responsibility

he needed me when he was down..

now that he is up and kicking..

all he needs is my understanding..

so that's what i have to give..

was looking through his past mails..

i realised how foreign i feel now..

how much things have changed..

and how matured ive gotten over feelings..

i remember how i used to 'fight' with him when he doesnt msg/call/meet me..

at least once in 4 days he has to meet or at least text me..

but now even when he doesnt it seems ok..

before you start presuming whether or not i love this guy anymore,

im just believing that its me getting more matured and that's all.

sometimes its bttr not to think too much!

&& i got better more important things to look at..

anyway HEYS! good news!

since ill be leaving in a month!

its good news that he's coping well without me..

means it wont be a problem for him when im gone..

positive thinking..

anyway school is really making me kinda emotional..

from a 3.7 im not at a 2..

how much has i deproved!

haiz..

and i only gt 2 sems to buck up..

can i even get pass it..

oh god, if only you can make me pass this stage..

please give me some guidance from above..

for what can i do without you?

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